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Saturday, December 4, 2021

Distraction

Distraction

Open air, whether in deep forest, widening prairies, or bottomless ocean…..- Mom!” Clayton's orange hair was a mess. In frustration, he finger-combed his hair, pulled on his ears and crumpled page after page. “Mom! I just can’t get this right. Can I read it to you and you tell me what you think?” Yelling from his room down the hall from the kitchen, he hoped his mother would help him out. Actually he hoped she would call him to bring his work into the kitchen. He was about to call her again when his wishes were granted. Rubbing his hands, he leapt from his chair. Grabbing up his notebook, he stepped over his gym bag, kicked a few crumpled pages aside, he called out “Coming!”

His mother finished the last of the dozens of cookies she had been making. She shook her head and smiled. Pushing a few stray brown curls back from her forehead, she surveyed her work - and the work ahead of her. “Clayton, Clayton, Clayton….here. Let me read that - Open air, whether in deep forest, widening prairies, or bottomless ocean…It looks all right to me….Clayton, stop eating my work!” She caught him just as another sugar cookie disappeared into his mouth. “But mom, they’re my favourites. I love sugar cookies. Are you going to decorate these?” His mother smiled behind her eyes. “Sugar cookies your favourite? I thought your favourite were the Ginger Chews? Or was it those oatmeal/raison cookies?” She whisked a tray of cookies out from under his grasping fingers. “Now, I’m not the one you should be talking to. Talk to your father. He’s the English Major, and never lets either one of us forget it. But he does know more than I do.”


“But I don’t like talking to dad about my work. He gets all into his teacher mode and asks me what I think is wrong, then tells me I’m wrong about what I think and besides that…….” His mother interrupted. “It’s Saturday, he’s in the garage working on his 1960 Mustang. He wants it ready for the Christmas parade next week.” While she talked, she prepared a small plate of cookies. Picking up a thermos from the cupboard, she handed both to her son. He quickly stuffed his notebook under his arm and took cookies and thermos from his mom. “What’s in here? Coffee for dad?” 


“Yes and he’s got sodas in his little fridge out there. Go. Go. I’ve got to get the frosting on all these cookies now, get them packaged for the bake sale and get them over to the church…Go!”


“All right, all right! But if dad gives me a hard time…….” Clayton disappeared out the back door still complaining, but glad he had the cookies.


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Open air, whether in deep forest, widening prairies, or bottomless ocean…” His father was no help at all. But they did have a good discussion about horse power. There were no cookies left. Wiping his hands of cookie crumbs, his dad said. “I’m not being a teacher today, son. You’ll have to figure it out for yourself.”


“Distraction from distraction by distraction.”

~ T.S.Eliot



Friday, December 3, 2021

Wherever We Land

Home ~ a feeling 

surrounded by photographs and recipes

artfully posed or candid surprise shots,

wrinkled pages stained with coffee and cake batter


Home is a feeling

infused by scents and sounds of Christmas

Roasting turkey and apple pie,

Crackling fireplace and carolling.


Home is a feeling

created from our homes before now

blending family traditions

creating new traditions from belief.


“The experience is about how we get there, not the landing place.”

 ~ Bill Buxton

(Canadian computer scientist and designer)



 

Thursday, December 2, 2021

Embrace




Home, a feeling surrounded by photographs and recipes…….

Open air, whether in deep forest, widening prairies, or bottomless ocean……..

Moving from house to house….

Exploring, in baby steps,  I welcome the ghosts…………






“Home is where one starts from.”

~ T.S.Eliot


 

Wednesday, December 1, 2021

Chapter Two, Episode Sixty-One - Looking for Home - Situationally Theirs

Looking for Home


“Em, I’ll just have to show you.” Dez asked her sister to walk with her. Sunglasses and rain jackets on, they set out toward toward the garden. Dez steered her sister towards the old path she had spotted the week before. “Dez, where are we going? I thought we were just staying on the track.” 


The grass was still wet. Dez could see Brewster bounding towards them, Samuel whistling after her. When he saw the sisters, he took off his hat, waved and turned back to the shed. “Brewster! Hey, girl. You’re not that wet now that the rain’s stopped for a while.” To prove Dez was wrong, the dog braced all four paws and shook out a shower of water. The sisters jumped back to avoid getting soaked before it rained again. “Oh, Dez! She’s a nice dog, but does she have to come with us. It’s a good thing I still have to get ready to go to have dinner with Jeremy.” Em stepped back further from Brewster, wiping down her rain jacket and just about slipping in a puddle. “Ooh! Let’s go Dez. Show me what you’re going to show me and let me get back to the house. I’m feeling all soggy now, and quite out of sorts.”


“Ok, Em. Brewster, get back to Samuel. See, there he is.” He had stepped out of the old shed, wiping his hands on an old rag. She pointed at him hoping the dog would follow her finger. He whistled again. “Brewster, get over here dog. Stop botherin’ the ladies.” He took hold of her collar and waved at the sisters. “I’ve got’er now, Miss Dez. You two get on with your plans.


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“Dez, you must be joking! This hedge is the easiest part of your plan. That’s the old garage? I had no idea there was anything here.” Em was now brushing leaves and wet twigs from her clothes having squeezed through the ‘opening’ that Dez showed her. “What do you want to do? Build a house back here?”


“Not big house. One of those tiny homes. I don’t know that much about them but I’ve a whole raft of magazines about tiny homes. I’ll do a lot of research about what’s needed. Like I don’t know about getting plumbing or electricity out here.” Dez was quiet a long time. She was holding up her hands as if to measure distances. Then, walking forward, then sideways. “Um hmm. Yes, it would fit just over there. Still room for a little private garden…… Oh, Em. I’m sorry. I’m ignoring you but can’t you just see it. And I could live out here. You could have some of mom and dad’s furniture for your upstairs - that’s if you wanted it.” Em stood holding the back of her hand to her mouth, her shoulders shaking. “What are you laughing at? I’m just excited. You’ve wanted me out here for a long time. I’ve found a solution.” She looked almost contrite, her excitement as dampened as the grass.


“Dez, let’s go back to the house. You’re tired and I’m cold. Cook will have something hot to warm us up. We’ll talk about it.” Em saw her sister’s enthusiasm had evaporated. Although she was very much better, walking without any assistance, she often tired sooner than was normal.


“You’re right, Em. I’ve jumped ahead of myself. From finding a piece of land to having my whole project completed. Getting back to the house sounds good. Come this way.” She led the way to the more open path that Samuel had showed her. They were just at the house when the rain came down again.


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Cook did in fact have something hot ready for them. Mugs of cocoa and Christmas sugar cookies were set out. “I’m going early, Miss Em, so just put the mugs in the sink and take the rest of the cookies into Dr. Jeremy when you go in.” The sisters hung their wet things up and, still shivering, were very glad to feel the warm kitchen. They each picked up a mug of cocoa before sitting down. “You know, this tiny house thing is more complicated than I thought. The little place look nice, quite intriguing with all their cubby holes and sliding doors and drawers.” Dez was flipping through the Tiny Home magazine she had left on the table. “I think I got ahead of myself, Em. I just thought I’d buy a prefabricated home, put it on that land and set up house. Are you telling Jeremy about my rather hollow plan?”


“We’ll probably talk about it, but I have a different idea. One that would be easier for all of us. We could still work on finding out if a Tiny Home would work on that space you saw. In the meantime, Martha’s duplex will be empty again.” Elbows on the table, Em held her mug in both hands and took a sip. “Really? What about Brigitte? Where’s she going?” Brigitte had been renting Martha’s duplex since the spring and as far as Dez knew, would be there for a long time. “She’s going to university and will be living on campus. At least that’s the last I heard. It would be so nice to have you just across the lawn from us.”


“Em, look at this.” Dez was looking at the classifieds at the back of the magazine. “What? I can barely read it, it’s so tiny.” She was squinting at it and pushed the magazine back to Dez. “It’s Matt. You know, my friend the orchardist. The ad is for another business he has and it’s about tiny homes.” Dez was smiling, checking her cell phone contacts to be sure it was the same Matt Hamilton. “Didn’t he come here to help you set up the bee hives last summer?” 


“That’s right. I’ll get in touch with him and talk to him about all this. See how complicated it really is - you know the plumbing and electricity. The house is the easy part all the utilities are a different issue. By the way, I like your idea of me being in Martha’s house. I’ll miss seeing Brigitte out here. We didn’t cross paths that often but I enjoy her. She’s fun. Needs to be with folks closer to her own age.” Emelina got up and took her mug to the sink. “I’d better get going before it gets dark. I’ll be staying in town with Jeremy tonight.” Before Dez could remind her, she continued “And I’ll take all the precautions - mask, wash my hands, don’t see anyone but Jeremy. We’re ordering dinner in so won’t be in the community.” Em ran lightly up the stairs, stopped at the top and called down. “I’m leaving out the front door, so good night and see you tomorrow.”


Dez sighed. The house was so quiet. There was a light under Digby’s office door so she assumed he was still here. “Good night, Em. Hi to Jeremy. Safe trip to town.”


“As corny as it sounds to me, home is where the heart is…..

So moving houses is just another way in which I get to experience life.”

~ Ellen DeGeneres


 

Tuesday, November 30, 2021

On a Morning Walk - Please! They're Only Geese.

Two crazy ladies

Went for a walk

Slipping, sliding

They talk, talk, talked.


Hundreds of gabbling geese

Gathered far out on the lake

Like soldiers they lined up ~

To the skies they did take


They each took their turn

In grand, well-ordered flocks

While the two crazy ladies

Watched from an ice-coated dock.



“We are perishing for want of wonder, not for want of wonders.”

~ G.K.Chesterton


 

Monday, November 29, 2021

On a Morning Walk - Thursday was Cold!


Thursday was cold!! 

Huddled and puffed against the cold.

Heads hunched into fluffed feathers.

Pecking and poking at frozen breakfast.



“Alas! He is cold, he cannot answer me.”

~ Mary Shelley, Frankenstein


(Today it rained.)


Sunday, November 28, 2021

Standing Alone - From My Journal

My journal: Nov. 22 2016. Long before I retired, or moved, or the invasion of this virus. I was working on writing exercises that month, specifically Creating Settings. I rather liked the setting and story I created on that day. It also seemed to fit this November's Permission theme. Giving permission to ourselves to feel our feelings is important. This time of year, as the Christmas season ramps up, it is too easy to ignore our feelings in our rush to fix one more Christmas. In this time of Covid 19, far too many of us in cities, towns or country are alone. So here is my little piece:


Standing Alone


“The colour of the sea and the sky are one. Only the softness of the clouds is different from the choppy waves. All is greyness and damp. The ships flag hangs limply, wilted against the flag, too wet to be flapping in the brisk wind, wrapped around the pole trying to get out of the rain. Morning came early and in the dark wet there was little light. Only from inside the ship. Where stewards with urns of steaming coffee were posted just inside the portals. Stepping outside, not caring about the weather, I stood alone on the prow, away from the heat of the great body of passengers stirring inside the great town-ship. There is a space, a void in my heart that is as gray and dark as the morning. I know I can step inside to the warmth and camaraderie of the ship, but cling to my loneliness as one clings to a life raft. The captain says the rain will soon stop, but will my tears? I have left a life behind me that I can’t return to until I have released the pain from my heart to the elements. A pain never truly gone but no longer flooding my soul as the rains and the ocean flood all around me. There is a loneliness that heals.”


“Remember: the time you feel lonely is the time 

you most need to be by yourself. Life’s cruelest irony.”

~ Douglas Coupland, Shampoo Planet