Steering a steady course on the broad blue river,
dark rich silt, fertilized by ancestors, settles to the bottom.
Limitations bestowed on me by Epilepsy
merely create structure like low tree covered shores
shaping the course of the broad river carrying me.
Ancient trees stand silently lining the shores
with no thought to the river flowing steadily past
Has the soil around their roots been worn away
by years of life's eroding river?
or have they been strengthened by the steady flow?
Has either happened?
The river and trees know not of each other
but reside side by side one supporting one another
A relationship of chance.
The relationship I have with epilepsy has taught me much.
No matter how deep and strong the currents
of family, friends, career or community run,
I must develop and maintain a healthy relationship with this Elephant in the room.
If any of the mistakes and missteps I have made in this life
have negatively affected that relationship
not only do I pay the price, but one or more of you in my family does as well.
If any of my wants and desires has pushed me
beyond my limitations, you and I pay the price once more.
As this Epilepsy Awareness month began with Gratitude
So it will end with Gratitude.
Gratitude for all of you that have roused me from my seizures,
mending my soul and my body,
caring for me and accepting me
as I carry this unusual gift of Epilepsy.
Thank you to all.
“Thanksgiving comes to us out of the prehistoric dimness, universal
to all ages and all faiths. At whatever straws we must grasp,
there is always a time for gratitude and new beginnings.”
- J. Robert Moskin