Belief Has No Schedule

Schedules are not pretty 

lines, boxes, 

spread sheets and graphs. 

They are handy, 

but don’t fit into real life. 

Two events that occur at 

the same time on the same day - 

how do I choose? 

Will someone be offended

when I cancel one of the duplicates?

When it comes to 

seizure activity for any reason, 

schedules dissolve instantly

Epilepsy hasn’t read the memo 

about ‘a most convenient time’

So we plan, we avoid risks, 

we take our meds, 

we shape our lives and 

never stop believing 

in our own strength.

“The key is not to prioritize what’s on your schedule, 

but to schedule your priorities.”

~ Stephen Covey, author

(1932 ~ 2012)

Gate Keeper

Epilepsy walks with me 

using the same feet that 

carry the rest of my body.

To understand that was not easy. 

Epilepsy was in my brain. 

Take a pill and seizures will 

stop being unpredictable.

Slowly, awkwardly, I learned 

that life with epilepsy had 

to become a relationship.

A relationship of respect.

Not mutual, but very much

my own responsibility

To understand that was not easy.

Epilepsy is in my brain,

without its own intelligence.

So I am its gate keeper.

“This is your life. You are responsible for it. 

You will not live forever. Don’t wait.”

~ Natalie Goldberg

Stumbles

Coming to terms with what? 

The weather? 

My lot in life?

My past that always seemed 

to have a trip wire making

me stumble, stop and think, 

choose the how not the why

Of course today, 

that ever present present, 

still has its trip wires. 

Knowing that, I can take my time, 

Avoid the stumble; still stop, think 

and make better choices 

not perfect just better.

“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language, 

and next year’s words await another voice.”

~ T.S.Eliot