Emotions will never reach tomorrow
~ too fluid unless we hang on
The dips and the dives of
those slippery ‘feels’ change
with the tides of each day
The tides of tomorrow will be different
maybe calm or steady or wild
so belief in yourself and
the life that you live is
the rudder that steers you through life.
“Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.”
~ Arthur Ashe
Epilepsy walks with me
using the same feet that
carry the rest of my body.
To understand that was not easy.
Epilepsy was in my brain.
Take a pill and seizures will
stop being unpredictable.
Slowly, awkwardly, I learned
that life with epilepsy had
to become a relationship.
A relationship of respect.
Not mutual, but very much
my own responsibility
To understand that was not easy.
Epilepsy is in my brain,
without its own intelligence.
So I am its gate keeper.
“This is your life. You are responsible for it.
You will not live forever. Don’t wait.”
~ Natalie Goldberg
To know one’s being after
all the glorious mess of a day
is to allow it to blossom
in the quiet of the evening.
“Inhale and hold the evening in your lungs.”
~ Sebastian Faulks, Engleby
Trust yourself ~
‘Sounds easy and does hard’.
Breaking a decision
into chunks
makes life manageable
each step simple,
hampered only by emotional baggage
with time between to change your mind
Trust yourself
to back up and go around
or turn down a different road
when necessary or
if a more charming road appears
Trust yourself.
“Some wisdom lives in your body before your
mind can explain it. Trust what your bones know.”
~ Lawrence Nault, author
Genre: science fiction, Young Adult, Fiction
“Get the organized-brain person on board”
Anxiety about upcoming Christmas contributions sends the chaotic part of my brain into a twirl and a panic.
“Put your daily routine into gear”
(I have to give myself directions sometimes)
A good day’s work rolled out:
Feed the sourdough starter
order groceries for Christmas
Set bread dough for baking in the afternoon
Bake the bread
Shovel powder dry snow off the balcony
(There was a blizzard yesterday)
Make granola for the next 10 days
(Just about missed an ingredient, but I fixed it)
and everything in-between
My last note to self:
“Brush your teeth and go to bed.”
“You must find the place inside yourself where nothing is impossible.”
~ Deepak Chopra
I missed it ~
the whispers in my ear
the tightness in my midsection
the frantic busy in my head
I looked around ~
Did I forget something?
Did I turn the stove off?
What have I missed?!
It did feel good ~
the whispers were kinder
I just felt ….. good!
And perhaps calm?
I got comfortable with it
This peace of mind.
This spacious feeling
This day full of me.
“Make the most of yourself….for that is all there is of you.”
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Margins of red ink
scribbled all around
the neat black ink
marching line by line
up and down the page
Notes to self about
spelling, ideas, focus,
qualities, punctuation
later to be woven into
the 400th manuscript.
“What I want are words that
reflect my heart, not my cleverness.”
~ Hugh Prather, Notes to Myself:
My Struggle to Become a Person
When I was a part of
the vast army of nurses,
an employee,
practicing my craft,
I had a certain belief.
A belief in,
not only nursing and nurses,
but the frailties of the human body. The ways of walking, talking, coping with the pain and strife of whatever condition was within them.
Now, as a woman alone,
my belief was confused
and many days still is.
Confused about my place in all this emptiness;
where do I step;
am I enough;
are there rules I should follow.
Until, step by step, I learned
to adapt lessons from the past,
to find the steps,
the guideposts,
the anchors for this retired life
and to believe in myself.
“Man is made by his belief. As he believes, so he is.”
~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe
Sinking into myself
I feel the reality and
wonder of being.
This human, biological life
filled with spirit, soul
and a solitary purpose to be.
“Who are you to refuse yourself?”
~ Kamand Kojouri, author
Genre: Poetry, Historical Fiction, Philosophy
"Solitude isn’t all………
Over time, it gets………
Loneliness and solitude…
Individual moments……
Time and money may….
“Unless I’ve learned…
Dreams are the ultimate…..
Everyone needs………
“Loneliness is the poverty of self; solitude is richness of self.”
~ May Sarton
