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Showing posts with label Promise. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Promise. Show all posts

Sunday, September 6, 2026

Dreams I Hold Dear




Cared about, I still felt lost, then

I looked to my feet. I knew that 

only I could direct them

 where and when I would go

in this day and time of mine.


My wandering mind took me to 

places filled with shining promise 

  along with stories I told myself 

until I shaded in colours of reality, 

mixed with dreams I hold dear.





“We are such stuff as dreams are made on, 

and our little life is rounded with a sleep.”

~ William Shakespeare,  The Tempest

Sunday, December 7, 2025

All my Past Tomorrows

All my past tomorrows 

bump up against one another, 

each one crying out 

remember me!

remember me!

until my heart is bursting 

to gather them all in a bouquet.

Those past tomorrows 

hold another set of words: 

“I’ll get it done tomorrow”. 

And I wonder how many of those things 

were set aside or reached completion, 

put in the outbox. 

And those that were set aside, 

those promises that floated away,

were they the shading, 

the colouring of my life 

that I missed on one of my past tomorrows.


“Live today. Not yesterday. Not tomorrow. Just today. 

Inhabit your moments. Don’t rent them out to tomorrow.”

~ Jerry Spinelli, Love, Stargirl

Wednesday, May 15, 2024

Buds and Blossoms








Buds and blossoms of spring 

warm my heart with 

their dainty pink promise







“Spring is magic ~ sweet to the senses & easy to celebrate.”

~ Susan Branch, Vineyard Seasons: More from the Heart of the Home

Tuesday, July 20, 2021

Sitting Pretty Sea Holly - An Update

Sea Holly

 




Sweetly tolerant of heat and dry,

    pretty sea holly promises

nurture for bee and butterflies.








“When the flower blossoms, the bee will come.”

~ Srikumar Rao, 

Author of Happiness at Work


Authors note:
My error of last evening was misnaming this lovely little plant a thistle. I have learned since that it is Sea Holly (botanical name Eryngium planet). While it has similar attributes to the thistle, it is apparently not botanically related.

Saturday, August 22, 2020

Chapter One, Episode 147 - Promise - Situationally Theirs

Review, Revision, Edit and Update
Revision to show, rather than tell, was my main task for this episode. It began with the very first paragraph. For someone falling asleep, the sentences were too 'sentence-y'. I don't know about you, but when I'm falling asleep thoughts come in fragments.

Another part of revision is rearranging sentences to improve the flow of the narrative. These sort of revisions were throughout this episode, including some wording changes.

A pleasant scene that needed, and was given, a lot of upgrading, I do believe I improved its readability.

Promise

The pillow was soft. The blankets warm. Emelina sank into the comfort of her sister’s bed, but s
leep didn’t come easily. Awakened at three a.m.......a distress call from Jeremy.....arriving at Hartley General........a million questions .......someone had asked for her......Jeremy didn't have answers....didn't  see Mrs. Tyler.....only more questions.......thirty years crumpled and tossed away. Emmie cried, dozed fitfully, daylight squeezed through tightly pulled curtains......she was sixteen again.

~~~~~

The big window was smudged with fingers prints. Parents and grandparents that came to get just a glimpse of their newborn family member, touched the glass as though they could transmit their joy to the right baby. Emelina, in her fuzzy pink housecoat and fuzzy pink slippers, went everyday to see the baby. She was the third baby in the third row of bassinets. One of the nurses had pointed the swathed and tiny baby out to her. The name on the bassinet was Baby Eliot. Every day, Emelina would whisper, “I’ll find you someday.” But one day, when she looked for her little girl, she was no longer there. “Miss Eliot?” A nurse was at her shoulder. “The doctor wants to see you. He says you’re ready to go home.” Emelina looked at her without seeing her. “But my baby? She’s not there.”

~~~~~

Her eyes still closed, Emelina could hear someone moving around in another room. It didn’t feel like her own bed. She opened her eyes. The room, in semi darkness, was unfamiliar. She still had her clothes on. “Emmie? It’s Dez. Can I come in?” The bedroom door cracked open. Emmie remembered driving somewhere with Dez. A phone call from Jeremy? The hospital waiting room?  “Come in Dez. I don’t know where I am. I don’t know why I’m here. What time is it?” Dez pushed the door open with her foot, two cups of coffee in her hands. “It’s five o’clock in the evening, Em. You’ve been sleeping all day. Talking in your sleep a lot, but at least you slept. Here. Have some coffee. Are you hungry?”

“I’m starved, Dez.” Accepting the steaming hot coffee gratefully, Emelina took a careful sip. “Mmmmm, this coffee tastes good, thank you. I must look a mess. Sleeping in my clothes?” Emmie pulled the scrunchy out of her hair, tangled with stray strands and bunched up crookedly. Dez looked serious and worried about her big sister. “I managed to get your shoes and jacket off before you sent me away. Here, let me help you up.” After another sip of coffee, Emmie put it on the bedside table, standing stiffly. “Dez, I need a shower before I can think straight. Can I borrow some clean clothes from you?” 

~~~~~

While Emmie showered, Dez put quiet, slow jazz on to cut the silence of her apartment while she made soup and sandwiches for both of them. She set a bowl of fresh fruit on the table, lowered the heat under the soup and went into the living room. Thumbing through an outdated magazine while she waited, she was about to check on her sister, when the bathroom door opened. Dez called to her. “I’ve left you some clothes on the bed, Em. Supper’s ready. Just soup and sandwiches.” Dez put the magazine down and looked out her patio doors at the darkening evening. There was little wind to stir the branches below. Dez felt calmness surround her.

~~~~~
While they ate, there was no discussion of the trip to the hospital or the discoveries they had made there. “Soup’s good, Dez.”  Dez nodded. “It’s just regular tomato soup.” The slow jazz provided the evening with a gentle rhythm. “I called Digby and let him know you're in here with me. Do you want to stay tonight or should I drive you home?” Emmie finished her sandwich and last spoonful of soup. “I think I’d like to stay - if it’s all right - for a few days. Be close to the hospital.” Those were her sister's first words giving any indication that there was more thought about, than spoken. 

Emelina was no longer 16. Carrie was grown and had another life. What kind of life Emelina didn’t know. It didn’t matter. In her dreams, she remembered her promise. Awake, she remembered her dream. If Emelina and her daughter could have talked, she could have answered all her questions. That was not possible for now. Emelina knew it would take time, but she was willing to do what was necessary.

“I couldn’t keep you but I never left you either.”
~ Niharika Sah, Closure

Thursday, April 30, 2020

Chapter One, Episode 37 - Vineyards, Orchards and Bees - Situationally Theirs




June 12, 2020
Review, Edit and Update:
Vineyards, Orchards, and Bees takes us out of the very narrow lives that Dez and Emmie have had to live due to Covid19 restrictions.

Punctuation repaired; sentence structure improvement, page break added for the last paragraph.




Vineyards, Orchards and Bees

The  garage smelled dusty, with just a faint odour of motor oil. Giles always loved coming into this garage. A garage used only for the three Estate vehicles. His garage had barely enough room for one vehicle. Boxes full of long forgotten treasures, old skates, shoes and skis, plastic cartons full of toys for babies and toddlers. There was even a beautiful carved-back wooden chair hung up on one wall like a Christmas ornament. Old bicycle tubes waiting to be patched. At least three boxes labeled 'Christmas'. Fingerprints on layers of dust that coated everything including the tiny window over the ancient workbench where a drill press was attached. He and Melanie had two vehicles. The only one that could park in the garage was his wife’s little car. It was always a squeeze to get out of it. The little mauve Toyota Echo faithfully took Melanie to her teaching job everyday. With all the schools closed, the ‘poor dear’ sat quietly waiting for the engine to be started up again. Giles smiled at the gentle way Melanie spoke of her car. ‘Well she’s my little friend, Giles. Don’t tease me.’ 

But the Estate cars ~ each with their own sign hanging from the garage roof by slender bronze chains: A sleek metallic bronze Jaguar. ~ A shining black Lexus ~ The deep red Silverado SUV. All were relatively new, purchased the year before Mister Michael passed away. Mrs. Beaufort had had no interest in the purchase or care of the cars then or in years past. She was extremely fortunate that Digby had hired Giles. Giles, who drove an eighteen year old Honda CRV, was not just a chauffeur, but a mechanic. He kept the cars in good running order, trouble shooting any problems. When it came to the computerized functions of these cars, he happily passed that skill over to the experts. 

A polished solid oak workbench stood in the far corner of the garage. In it, Giles kept motor oil, vehicle shampoo and polish, extra windshield wipers, as well as polishing cloths. Any tools were kept in very strict order. Before even checking the fluid levels and tire pressures, using two polishing cloths, he gently wiped the dust from the Lexus and the Jaguar. Many times Giles felt that he in a show room, rather that a garage. 

The SUV, however, was not in the garage, but parked at the back door. It had been recently washed and when he checked the levels they were all topped up. The tires had been appropriately inflated. Giles was impressed. Mrs. B. has been taking good care of this young lady. Giles, unable to see his employer within sight, poked his head in the back door and called out. “Anyone home? Mrs. Beaufort?……..Mrs. Beaufort?” When there was no answer, he looked around the yard again. She must be upstairs or out in the orchard. I wonder whether her sister has a car. They may not even be on the property right now. He patted the SUV on the hood as he passed, whistling his way to the garage and the two beauties within.

~~~~

Dez and Emmie, in Dez’s car, had gone exploring the country side. Being isolated gave them cabin fever. Expanding their horizons, but keeping within the Estate grounds or into Dez’s apartment felt quite exciting to begin with, but their restlessness grew. Outside of Hartley, Dez showed Emmie a part of the country she had never seen before. The closest she had come to being in any rural area besides her own orchard was when Giles drove her to the airport or to the ferry. “Dez, this is wonderful! I know what apple trees look like, but what are those? Are those grape vines?” 

“Of course Emmie, haven’t you ever seen where your wine comes from?” 

“Well of course I’ve seen beautiful glossy photos in magazines and on some of the bottle labels. So I do know what they look like, but when usually in full leaf. I haven’t seen them this early in the spring, like they have arms that stretch out linking each other all down the length of each row. I don’t suppose we could talk to the grape grower?”

“Let’s stop and ask. There’s someone working on the vines over there.” Dez kept her hands on the wheel and pointed towards the passenger side of the car.

“I see him. Let’s just go over to the fence and talk from a distance. I'm leaving my jacket in the car. That man is only in shorts and a sleeveless shirt. His big straw hat is wonderful.”

Pulling over into a field entrance, Dez parked the car. Traffic on the road was practically non existent, but they walked quickly across to the vineyard, shading their eyes from the glare of the sun. In the springtime silence, songbirds trilled and warbled from trees next to the vineyard. The occasional cry of a seagull punctured the air. Even Emmie’s voice lifted up and away to a cloudless sky.

“Excuse me sir. I am so interested in what you are doing. I’ve not seen vineyards at this time of year. “ 

“Well ma’am, before they leaf out, I check to see if there are any suckers at the base of the buds. That’s what I’m doing now. But there’s a whole more lot to taking care of all the vines. If I had time today, I’d invite you in and tell you a bit more, give you two ladies a tour.” The grape grower nodded and returned to his work.’’

“Emmie, looks like he’s done talking. I’ve another reason for bringing you out here. There are more orchards farther down the road with something I’d like you to see. The orchardist knows we’re coming.”

“What is it Dez? I love this adventure! Thank you. Thank you. It’s like I’ve been let out of a cage that I didn’t even know I was in. I know when we were kids we did this sort of thing, but I got so caught up in ‘the good life’ and then my grief, that I had forgotten how wonderful the countryside can be.”

“Here we are.” Dez turned the car into a long driveway lined with old elm trees. “This orchard has several different fruit trees, but it’s not the fruit trees we’re here to see. ……Hi, Matt. This is my sister, Emelina Beaufort. She has a small apple orchard. I’m taking on a beekeeping project for the orchard. I wanted to show her your beehives so she could see what kind of project she has approved for it.”

“Hi Dez ~ can’t give you a hello hug or even shake your hand."  Matt, tanned and fit, smiled warmly at Dez. "We’ll just keep our distance and be friendly anyway. Hello, Mrs Beaufort. I know of the Beaufort Estate. I assume you are that Mrs. Beaufort?” 

“So pleased to meet you, Matt. Yes, I am that Mrs. Beaufort, but please. Call me Emmie. So you have beehives?”

“Yep. Follow me…………
~~~~~

Emmie and Dez learned more that afternoon about bees and beekeeping than they ever knew existed. In the car again, driving back to the Estate, they discussed all the benefits that bees could bring to the apple orchard. A jarring reunion of these sisters on a night frightening and hopeless, their lives had become companionable and full of promise. Their mutual need and fragmented history seemed at the very root of their ability to thrive. 

“An apple tree is just like a person. In order to thrive, 
it needs companionship that’s similar to it 
in some ways, but quite different than others.”
~ Jeffrey Stepakoff

Friday, July 26, 2019

Despite


Despite a more than occasional nibble from passing deer and brisk west winds threatening to blow delicate flowers away, a quite cool June has melted into the heat of July reviving my little ‘vegetable garden’. Baby tomatoes, one jalapeño (there were two more) and a couple of beans have hesitantly grown with more promised. I do believe that some mesh and my bamboo fencing have deterred most of the deer croppings. After all, there is quite a buffet in Victoria besides my little bit of greenery. Keeping the soil moist annoys squirrels, but does prevent small craters from appearing out of nowhere. Despite these little challenges, I am still committed to picking my own vegetables from my own small garden.






“The garden suggests there might be a place where we can meet nature halfway.”
~ Michael Pollan

Saturday, August 30, 2014

After the Whirlwind

Early morning wakening,
rising from a dream world of
yachts and spies and sorting CD’s and jars of something,
when, from ether's land came floating down, like dry leaves and scraps of paper, three disconnected bits of yesterday left behind ~ two for home and one a promise and left behind on clipboard and in staff room.

There was pungent delicious rosemary from a colleagues garden,
research papers for interesting study and learning and
a bit of shift change reporting that was missed at day's end.
Each scrap left behind held the element of a promise
A promise of delicious savoury meat on the grill.
A promise of gleaning information for my use in writing.
A promise to pass on a client’s request.
Which holds more importance?

“The value of your work is not in the dollar. It’s in your word.”
~ Author Unknown