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Thursday, March 7, 2013

Once I Knew Nothing


From somewhere deep within me, 
a rogue current pushed me off a ledge 
I did not know was there.

I fall, 
twisting and turning, 
into a dark chasm.

When I awoke 
the sun shone in my face
I knew not what had happened.

~~~~~

The Doctor said ‘you have epilepsy’
What more was said, I did not know.

The ledge remained
a chasm not always avoided
learning to walk around it
a learning curve not in any curriculum.

Pills - an easy piece of the puzzle

Lessons for living with epilepsy 
gathered slowly and steadily

while moving forward against 
layers of historical baggage

trying to force secrecy upon me 
and those like me.

The chasm of active epilepsy 
has not opened for a long time.

Talking about the chasm has taken
the mystery and fear away,
now I know many things.

“Secrecy involves a tension which, at the 
moment of revelation, finds it’s release.”
~ George Simmel

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