When the Power is On

To admit 

what I think I’m guilty of,

even to myself,

curls me into myself

sends me away from healthy thought and action.

To admit 

what I think I should be ashamed of,

especially to myself,

ties me in knots
sends me away 

from healing behaviour.

~~~~~

Powerless ~

but only in active epilepsy.

when my lights go out - 

I go out ~

I am powerless over everything.

~~~~~

When my lights are on

I have the power 

to learn 

to be present.

aware of my self,

my surroundings,

clear about who I am and 

who I am capable of being.

I am only powerless over the fact of epilepsy.

“What we actually learn, from any given set of circumstances, determines 

whether we become increasingly powerless or more powerful.”

~ Blaine Lee

Author's note:  edited July 25, 2024